i feel like i need to get this out... (for the haygoods)

okay
i dont know where to start so im just gonna ramble and you will be lucky if i use puncuation at all cause right now i just dont care. so fan night was awesome by the way but anyways i needed to say that the haygoods are one of the biggest inspirations in my life they have so much talent and love for what they do. it makes me mad that so many people dont appreciate them and follow them around and become stalkers its rediculous nobody should go through that at all it really makes me mad and it hurts to know they go through that i hate it so much they need a break but never get one cause either somebody is making some rediculous story about them or trying to be in with them just leave them alone go to the shows see them after enjoy their entertainment and enjoy the pics and videos its stupid that people would go so far to make things up. ive heard a lot of stupid comments from some people that know who they are that just need to get a clue and grow up and quit making up so much stupid stuff. im really done with it and i wanna tell them off so bad. its rediculous how so many people just follow and hang out by their cars after the shows to see them or get another pic that you just had im sure they just wanna go home and leave that place to get away and live their normal lives that they never get to live. like with them just wanting to hag out with their friends and have a drink who cares they are of age and wanna have fun. im sure you have a drink every once in awhile its no big deal for you and you are a christian its not wrong its perfectly fine it just makes me so angry they need to get a clue and realize that they have grown up and are not the fiddlers anymore from silver dollar city they wanna do their own thing and enjoy themselves and play their music and love what they do. im sure they do now but they wanna have more fun and do their own thing as well as what the older folks do. its stupid and had to get this off my chest and im so not done i will be back. and it will be longer than this one i guarntee it im just really tired. bye for now.

merry christmas

have a merry christmas and a happy new year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love always,
Tomiah

my last name is so cool now

Pogue is an offensive military slang term used by front line troops to describe non-infantry, non-combat soldiers, staff, and other rear-echelon or support units.[1] A related term is the acronym REMF, or "rear-echelon mother f***er".
The term may be derived from a Tagalog word meaning "prostitute". Originally, the term was a sexual insult, as "pogue" was slang for a young male who submitted to sexual advances.[citation needed] This lead to the related term "poguey bait", meaning candy or sweets. It has been used in the United States Marine Corps since as early as World War II, entering Army usage around the time of the Vietnam War.[2]
Due to having lost contact with its linguistic source, the modern military vernacular has turned "pogue" into a retronym/backronym. "Pogue" is now described as the pronunciation of the acronym POG, or Person Other than Grunt.[2]
Pogue is also a derogatory term for an Irish person. Pogue means "kiss" in the Irish language. Perhaps the most well-known phrase in Irish is "pogue mo thoin", which means "kiss my ass." The term pogue is not usually considered very offensive.

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

okay so im not sure why i titled it that. but anyways this week hasnt been the best at all. our electricity went out but we got that back on yesterday so its all good there. our town looks like crap and im sick of looking at it. i just wish i could go to college of the ozarks ( c of o) and be done with high school and live happily in branson. i dont know what elese to put. i guess i could let you know what bugs me. i cant stand people who are fake and liars. it makes me so mad. i grew up being lied to. so many people made promises that didnt know how to keep cause drugs were always involved. i also hate drugs. a little drinking i can stand but if youre an alcoholic drunk then dont even bother trying to talk to me cause i will shrug you off same with drugs. weed i cant say much on since practically everyone i know does it. so that rules that option out. but with fake people, i hate it when they go out to buy the most expensive clothes to fit in and have people be their friend when in reality it shouldnt work out like that. clothes and money shouldnt make friends but it does and i hate it. who cares what you are wearing. i will be your friend for who you are not what youre wearing. and i will try to help you if you go down a wrong path but once you become incureable i cant be around you. i dont want to de drug into soemthing like that. life is too short to screw it up all the time. i understand living for the moment and living big and playing hard, heck i need to be more like that, but dont destroy yourself. i do need to have more fun in life and become outgoing, and you guys are helping me with that. you really are. you just dont know it. wow i just ran out of things to talk about. well thats good, i gotta go and get ready for work and see my mom at hers before i go. its my first day so wish me luck.
love always,
tomiah

i went to the doctor

okay everybody!!!!!!!!!

so i went to the doctor and since the stupid people yesterday didnt measure the knot in mt arm where the medication was inserted to test my tb i have to wait a month and do it again. but i got my x-ray and i just should hear the results from that within the next 3 days and i cant go back to school until i do...and i have to take medication for the next 9 months and every 3 months get blood work done to make sure my liver is okay cause this medicine can damage my liver. it sucks big time. but i wont find out if its active or im just a carrier until we get the x-ray. and altogether its gonna cost around 300 dollars...so i just thought i would update you on whats going on...oh and no school until the x-ray comes back and they say its okay for me to go.

the worst day ever

so i got sent home today cause of my tb skin test. which i told you all about in the last post. well i went to lunch with my papa and he told me to go pay a bill for him and so i did well when i showed up the whole place was locked up and i dont know why. so when i went back to my car i looked in the window and my keys were in the ignition and my purse was in there too. so i had to walk home and break into our house by kicking in the door to get papas spare keys and have my meme take me to his work to get his key to the garage where my spare keys to my car are at. well we get there and i open the door without his spare key, aparently he doesnt lock his door at work cause of the guard. so i got his key to the garage and went back home and got my key then beack to the church to get my car (the bill was due to angel food ministries) then had to go back home cause i forgot the check and form that i had to give them. so i left to go and get well my mom calls me and tells me to go to her work when im done, so i get distracted and im a block away from the church and i realize i forgot the form and check again. so i go back home and get it and then drop it off. so im going to my moms work and i get stuck behind an idiot who likes to go 20 in a 35 so i pass them and speed up and im so mad i end up doing 50 in a 35 and then i see a cop coming towards me but he didnt stop me thank goodness. so i turn on 32nd off main and 32nd is 40 but once again i get stuck behind someone slow who is going 30. and i cant pass them cause all the traffic behind us is passing also so im following behind her for 5 blocks and then i finally paa her and she gets in the turning lane. i was so mad i screamed and clinched the steering wheel and then 'take it easy' came on the radio and i tried to but then someone cut me off and was going slow once again. so i finally make it to moms work and she was having a bad day also cause her and my dad were fighting over his drinking and he told her to just stay with him until after christmas and if she wants to move out then she can. but she has nowhere to go cause she doesnt want to be 34 years old and live at home with her dad and me even though it will only be for a short while til she gets on her feet again. so i think its okay dont you. but her old boyfriendmark is coming back into the picture and she wants to get back with him because he treated her right even though that was the time they were on drugs and she is concerned cause he is 7 years younger than her but age is just a number. although he has been married for 6 months but he said he wants my mom back so i dont know how its gonna work out. but whatever happens is i hope she leaves my dad cause hes the biggest drunk and she deserves a better guy cause shes always had the worst luck with men and she deserves better. i really dont care how much she has messed up before. i used to be at the point where i hated her and she was not my mom she was just tonya a woman who gave brith to me. all because of her drugs. it was sickening to see her fall apart and i hated it. if it wasnt for my papa taking me in i would have nothing. he is number one im my heart and always will be. i love him so much and always will. and i know my meme and mom are jealous but they dont understand, he can make me so mad but no matter how mad i get i will always love him and forgive him. he is my world and its gonna be hard when i go to college but i cant live here forever. hes the reason i want to be a nurse. so i can take of him cause i do not trust the nursing homes anywhere. even the one i work at for my clinicals. but im gonna go now, i hope you are getting to know me better now annette.
bye bye for now. love always, tomiah.

i got kicked oout of school today

hey everybody!

so last friday in my nursing class we were required to have a tb skin test and they checked it today and it came out positive. well since it did me and this other girl both had to leave school and cant come back until we get it offically checked out by our doctor and get our chest x-rayed to see if we actually have the bacteria in our body that would be eating the tissues of our lungs. it sucks. i wanna be in school right now but they wont let me. i hate missing school. i really do enjoy school and learning everyday. it interests me to expand my mind and i cant do that here. im so mad that i cant do anything. i have to miss school tomorrow also cause i cant get into my doctors office until 4:15 tomorrow. shes out today and all booked up tomorrow until then. so im just sitting at home writing my political paper on health care which is due wednesday and i have another on rudy giluiani due the 12 that i should be doing but im not cause im having a writers block and i still have to look up some information and read it about health care. im really not that into politics just yet but shes making us do it cause she likes it. she is also having us do a current event every week which i dont mind cause i enjoy that it helps to know whats going on in the world in every day. which is important. at least we dont have to write a page about it like last year. that was not fun cause that was also every week but of course that was government and this is just communication arts. yeah so im really bored and im watching haygood dvds. like i do all the time. cause evrybody thats normally on the mb or myspace is at school or work. this almost like being sick but without the misery of the stomach pains and constant coughing and sneezing. wow i finally have internet at home and there is still nothing to do. well i guess i should go and finish my papaer but i will be back soon. you can count on it. i wont leave you hanging on my results of the chest x-ray. i gotta keep you informed on my health it is important of course. adios amigos and amigas.

hey

so this is my first real blog and i dont wanna get emotional just yet. im just starting it for now but i will be back to start letting my emotions pour.