haygood videos. watch them. i will try and get all of their videos up. SOON!!!!

I need help...

im sick of my stupid step dad. he is always putting me down and hurting my feelings. and constantly he is always saying when i go to branson the guys are going to put a restraining order on me and im going to jail. at first he was kidding but like 20 minutes ago he said with a straigh face. he is being serious. im not even like that with them. i enjoy going to the show and looking at them. i never even talk about them unless its with other fans i have met on the message boards. and he thinks the only reason im going to c of o is cause of them. thats not true. its a good school with so many new features and free tuition. he pisses me off so much. he doesnt understand. so after he said it earlier i kept staring him down and he said to turn around and i was like say youre sorry. and he was being a smart ass and said youre sorry. so i got up grabbed my purse and told colton cameron and doug bye and my mom said not to leave but i kissed her and hugged her and told her bye and she asked why i was leaving and i said cause he is an asshole. im sick of him. he's always being mean to me and getting drunk all the time and im sick of it. when he gets like that sometimes he can be funny but then most of the time he is a real jerk and is really hurtful. i really hate him sometimes. and my mom has said so many times she will leave hima nd she doesnt. and i really want her to. like i will miss cameron so much but i cant stand my step dad anymore. im sick of the mental abuse that he puts on me and my mom. im done with it. and it sucks cause i hate going out there so i only get to see my mom at her work. and i hate that even more than i hate him. i know its a strong word but its so true. he makes me cry all the time. my mom could do so much better but she always seems to find drunks druggues or complete and total assholes. or a combination of the three. i want her to be happy but she cant leave him cause she has no money no transportation and no place to go. i have told her so many times that she can come here and live and we have three vehicles and she can open up a bank account in her own name cause she has a job and she can slowly save her money. i want him out of our lives. im done with him. i never want to see him again. i really do hate him. how can he sit there and say he loves me and then act like that towards me. and you wanna know something i left like 40 minutes ago and my mom still hasnt called to see if im alright. how messed up is that. im done with it all. im never going back out there. except to help my mom move out if she ever gets the courage to do it. she has before when they were on drugs so i dont see why she cant now. cause she is a stronger woman and needs to move on and find someone better for her and even for me. i dont know where the help i need comes into play but i guess i just wanted to rant and rave. thanks for listening.